Something to remember.

I just had a pretty awesome weekend, Rhiannon and Nathan came over from Victoria to chill and get away for the weekend.

Nathan and I have known and spammed with each other for some time, I think since July-ish and we have grown closer as mates from there, via the paddlin' of a spammin' and just being there.

I met Rhiannon through Nathan one day when he was on the phone at Uni and on MSN, Rhiannon was so kind to say Hi to me and let me know he was on the phone, but we started a conversation and I told her to add me on Facebook :P

Slowly Rhiannon and I have progressively gotten closer and closer.

When we first started talking I wouldn't have honestly thought that we would grow together and so close over time, its a little bit of a mind fuck thinking about it really.

Rhiannon and I have talked about everything with honestly and trust, we have been there for our own ups and downs, whenever she is down I am usually up and able to help her up, whenever I have been down she usually has been up and been there to help me up.

See-Saw relationships are good, I have noticed that I do have alot around me which is a good feeling.

When I first met Rhiannon she would inform me she is, If I recall properly she would specify further with "All my friends say I am awesome, I have to agree"

She also used to say "I'm special in the eating paste way"

of course I would dismiss and correct the eating paste.

Calling her awesome and special is true but a harsh understatement.

Over the time that Rhiannon and I have spoken something has grown inside of me?

Rhiannon is simply an amazing woman as per previous blog post, I really wish I could just sit down and write down everything about her, all the positives and whatever negatives I can find about her.

I wish I could concrete a smile on her whilst demolishing her doubts, fearing and loathing she may have about herself, I know she has them and though changing it completely would make her un-human, it may be worth it to see that smile for good.

Fact is whilst in Brisbane I thought about her alot amoung other things, I had an amazing moment on the First Saturday I was in Brisbane, this feeling is amazing once I realise what it is, I had realised I am in love and that I do love this woman though we had never met.

The thing that is more amazing is this, she understands who I am, she loves who I am? and most important, she accepts me for who I am, not my money (or lack there of), not my looks (or lack there of), not the music I like or the clothes I wear (or lack there of).

Just all of it in one, me.

Now in writing this, I know to some it will seem crazy or silly, to others they will understand how I feel.

I know that a matter months ago if I had have seen something similar written in a mates blog and under similar cicumstance, I would have laughed out loud, not necessarily because they have followed the heart, but because I 'knew' love was fake and can be faked.

Though I know I am extremely loved all those around me, Rhiannon has taught me something, that I can love and that I can be loved.

I've got 92 problems and not being able to love isn't one of them.